Wish I were a careless child.....

Chasing dreams taken me so far
Unfulfilled wishes still shining as scar
Scars as remembrance of battle defeated
Defeated by choice and afraid of being cheated.

Cheated again and again by time and fate
Former never comes in need and later always comes late
But I never gave up not knowing how
May be not learned but can’t afford now

Memories of those childhood dreams
Lost in midways making me scream
Those little joys and sudden sorrow
Enjoying every moment like no morrow

Everyone seems to be racing against time
Chasing wild goose beyond himself and always whine
No one has even got time to think
As they say “races are lost in a blink”.

Once there used to be tears for everything
Now I crave for a drop and find nothing
Cause as a grown up tears are not handy anymore
Again I want to cry aloud until get a throat soar

Again I wish I were a careless child
Knowing nothing about the bitterness of life
Having no big dreams with limited choice
Wondering without aim like a little mice.
As i promised...i have completed it....

Only for you....

This is something which has directly come out of my heart...... I have scribbled this on a piece of paper during moments of emotional resonance. And when finally I come out of all this I found that I have lost that piece of paper. So it was very natural like as soon as one discovers that one has lost something, all of a sudden it becomes very important and on the top of one’s priority list and that’s the exact situation I found myself into…..but after a long search one fine day I found that dear piece of paper(which is now more than a piece of paper for me)….i have written this poem for someone very important, someone I really admire and someone whom I dint get to know very well due to crunch of time….but whatever I know about her I really liked all of it......

A lot of things coming in my mind
At this moment with winding time
I have many things to say
Wanna pause the moments and sway.

Wanna spend some more time with you.
The only wish I want to pursue
Alas! Its not gonna happen again
Single thought drenched myself in pain


Every time I wake up in the night
Dreams of yours showing me light
Never wanna sleep again tight
In fear loosing it by morning light.

I can still smell your odor
Can hear your voice in my ear
I can still fell warmth of your touch
Wanna blossom all this as such.

Walking again on lonely road
Lost in memories denying to goad
Now missing your step behind me
The way you nag, the way you see.

For you I can do anything
Without you I am good for nothing
For you I can take any sin over my head
Departing you rather choose to be dead.

Time is ticking am loosing my mind
Loitering a lot having nothing to find
Hoping to get some beyond my sight
Loosing so much wanna make it right

Sounds of silence is all I can hear
Darkness inside me is only to fear
Keep fooling myself all this time
Wanna have someone who is all mine

The last thing I want to hear
Is a deny from someone dear
Its not possible to express the pain
When all the efforts goes in vain
But life goes on....